Greetings.
Joseph leaves for Ireland tomorrow @ 6:30 a.m. He technically leaves at 11:30, but you have to drive a LONG way to get to their airport, plus they have the Morton Curse: they are perpetually late, but they are determined not to be this time. Ugh, I don't want him to go and I am probably a horrible person for saying this but it is totally and completely true!
I saw him at church today. We hung out and I helped him with his costume for VBS because he can't seem to dress himself. That came out TOTALLY wrong, but he was just messing up his costume so much that I felt sorry for it. Mr. M too. Then after VBS, Mr. and Mrs. M invited me to have lunch at Mexicali with them and Mrs. Morton's mom. How could I say no? While I hate Mexican food, it was a chance to spend time with three of my favorite people in the world plus meet his only remaining grandparent.
After lunch, Mr. and Mrs. M took her mom home and Joseph and I went to Borders. It was a short walk and we talked the whole way. And, of course, he found the guidebook to GOD OF WAR III and he was dead to the world, the fact that he had his iPod on didn't help either. After a little while of that, I had to go home and pick up Bentley so he could get a birthday present for Mickie. (It's a gorgeous locket that we only paid $60 for. It was real gold. It was on clearance. We saved $232. Never again shall he dispute my bargain hunting skills.) Joseph walked me to my car and said good-bye.
And then I cried. I sat in Bev's car (mine was behind a gigantic trailer and Dad's had an engine problem so I had to use Bev's) and cried. I even accidentally made the horn honk because my head slammed down onto the wheel. I just bawled. I couldn't help it. Joseph was leaving. And I fell apart when he was in HAWAII. Now he's leaving the COUNTRY! I AM GOING TO GO BAT-CRAP CRAZY!!!!! I AM GOING TO BE ONE LAB ACCIDENT AWAY FROM BEING A SUPERVILLIAN!!!!!!
I can't stop being sad. I hate it when I am away from him. I wish I could see him all the time. But I can't. I already miss him!!!! I'm going to go cry again now. I feel like Juliet without her Romeo. Only I am not suicidal. Yet.
Hugz
HM
Showing posts with label Mickie. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mickie. Show all posts
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
The Curiosities of Protection
Greetings.
Why do we protect? Some leftover gene from the days when chivalry was as close to godliness (aside from cleanliness) as one could get? Some sick satisfaction we get from it? A religion? No, I believe that when we have someone/something we love, it is pure animal instinct that we secure it.
Is protecting someone you love or care about worth hurting someone else? The answer this time, however, is undefined.
In the case that someone is pointing a gun at your mom, by all means, smack him on the back of the head with a frying pan. But when it comes to emotional protection, how far do you go? I am no psychologist. I am no counselor. I am a loyal friend and a fierce fighter for my loved ones. I just told Jasper to abandon the movie plan because he's still hung up on Mickie. I told him that unless he is fully committed to the idea of dedicating all of his time to Bennie, then forget it. I told him I wasn't going to help him pry Mickie away from Bentley because if he wants her bad enough, he should grow the balls to do it himself. I think that if he loves her so much, he should just LET HER BE HAPPY. But I know he won't listen. I know he's going to find some way to get into Bennie's heart and then break it three months later when he tells her that he's still not over Mickie. Hopefully he'll have the sense to leave out Mickie's name. But that's exactly the same thing I did to Victor, my first real boyfriend. (See "My Love Life Part 3: Victor Hausen") I was still kind of hung up on Freddy and Aaron and I strung him along for almost three months. For what? I cried my eyes out because I felt horrible for using a perfectly nice guy. Victor went into a deep funk because he thought everything I had told him was a lie, and Aaron and Freddy felt guilty that they were the cause of so much unhappiness. I hurt four people in one blow. And Jasper is about to do the same. So I felt I had to do something. Otherwise the guilt would torment me for years to come.
I still don't know how far you go to protect someone. But I know I'll go as far as it takes for no one to get hurt. And if I hurt someone in the process, I have failed. I like to think I am a selfless person in one respect: I will protect anyone I love with everything that I have, but if I save someone else from pain even if it causes my heart to suffer, I will live with it. I will sacrifice my own pleasure, for the most part, for someone else, or even more than one, to find love and happiness. And I'd like to think that my reprimand of Jasper helped someone. Maybe not me, maybe not him, but maybe Bennie, Mickie, and Bentley. I won't know until I receive that hysterical phone call/brother in my room if I have helped anyone.
But I hope I did.
Hugz
HM
Why do we protect? Some leftover gene from the days when chivalry was as close to godliness (aside from cleanliness) as one could get? Some sick satisfaction we get from it? A religion? No, I believe that when we have someone/something we love, it is pure animal instinct that we secure it.
Is protecting someone you love or care about worth hurting someone else? The answer this time, however, is undefined.
In the case that someone is pointing a gun at your mom, by all means, smack him on the back of the head with a frying pan. But when it comes to emotional protection, how far do you go? I am no psychologist. I am no counselor. I am a loyal friend and a fierce fighter for my loved ones. I just told Jasper to abandon the movie plan because he's still hung up on Mickie. I told him that unless he is fully committed to the idea of dedicating all of his time to Bennie, then forget it. I told him I wasn't going to help him pry Mickie away from Bentley because if he wants her bad enough, he should grow the balls to do it himself. I think that if he loves her so much, he should just LET HER BE HAPPY. But I know he won't listen. I know he's going to find some way to get into Bennie's heart and then break it three months later when he tells her that he's still not over Mickie. Hopefully he'll have the sense to leave out Mickie's name. But that's exactly the same thing I did to Victor, my first real boyfriend. (See "My Love Life Part 3: Victor Hausen") I was still kind of hung up on Freddy and Aaron and I strung him along for almost three months. For what? I cried my eyes out because I felt horrible for using a perfectly nice guy. Victor went into a deep funk because he thought everything I had told him was a lie, and Aaron and Freddy felt guilty that they were the cause of so much unhappiness. I hurt four people in one blow. And Jasper is about to do the same. So I felt I had to do something. Otherwise the guilt would torment me for years to come.
I still don't know how far you go to protect someone. But I know I'll go as far as it takes for no one to get hurt. And if I hurt someone in the process, I have failed. I like to think I am a selfless person in one respect: I will protect anyone I love with everything that I have, but if I save someone else from pain even if it causes my heart to suffer, I will live with it. I will sacrifice my own pleasure, for the most part, for someone else, or even more than one, to find love and happiness. And I'd like to think that my reprimand of Jasper helped someone. Maybe not me, maybe not him, but maybe Bennie, Mickie, and Bentley. I won't know until I receive that hysterical phone call/brother in my room if I have helped anyone.
But I hope I did.
Hugz
HM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Theater
Greetings.
I happen to be an actress, singer, and a dancer (when I focus REALLY hard on the choreography). And I have even won an award for one of my roles. (I played a man. How humiliating is that?) But what I'd really like to discuss in this post are my friends from theater.
Bentley also participates in the shows. As do Jasper and Joseph. In fact, that's how Joseph and I met. I kept stealing his hat when he played John in PETER PAN. Anyways, there are more people in theater. Claire met her first serious boyfriend Kenny Harris in the same show I played a man in. She was one of my employees and he was the minion of my enemy.
Then we have Kenny Gordon. He is a friend of mine from when I was the Witch in INTO THE WOODS. He played Cinderella's father. Claire played an old Hag, Joseph played the Mysterious Man, and Jasper was the Narrator. In INTO THE WOODS, I met this WAAAAAAAAAAY hyper happy peppy preppy girl named Hillary Newcombe. She played Little Red Riding Hood. She's nice and everything but she's so ANNOYING. But not even Bentley saw it. In fact he and Hillary "dated" for a little while. (He's 13 and she's 12. I think they're crazy.) Then there's Mickie Phineas. She's one of the sweetest girls in the world and she's one of those girls that attract all the guys without even trying. She's dated Kenny (Harris, Claire's ex) and she has also attracted Bentley and Jasper. Sheesh, this girl has amazing powers. There are a lot of others, like Donna Pickett, the prima donna and most popular theater girl in our troupe. And then there's Brady Grayson, the most popular guy who gets all the big parts even though he can't remember his lines, be it song or acting, to save his life. Nice guy, not so bright upstairs.
Anyways, when I have more to update, I will. In fact my troupe is doing ALICE IN WONDERLAND (based on the new movie, I think, according to Jasper) during the summer. I want to be the Red Queen!!! WHEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
Hugz
HM
I happen to be an actress, singer, and a dancer (when I focus REALLY hard on the choreography). And I have even won an award for one of my roles. (I played a man. How humiliating is that?) But what I'd really like to discuss in this post are my friends from theater.
Bentley also participates in the shows. As do Jasper and Joseph. In fact, that's how Joseph and I met. I kept stealing his hat when he played John in PETER PAN. Anyways, there are more people in theater. Claire met her first serious boyfriend Kenny Harris in the same show I played a man in. She was one of my employees and he was the minion of my enemy.
Then we have Kenny Gordon. He is a friend of mine from when I was the Witch in INTO THE WOODS. He played Cinderella's father. Claire played an old Hag, Joseph played the Mysterious Man, and Jasper was the Narrator. In INTO THE WOODS, I met this WAAAAAAAAAAY hyper happy peppy preppy girl named Hillary Newcombe. She played Little Red Riding Hood. She's nice and everything but she's so ANNOYING. But not even Bentley saw it. In fact he and Hillary "dated" for a little while. (He's 13 and she's 12. I think they're crazy.) Then there's Mickie Phineas. She's one of the sweetest girls in the world and she's one of those girls that attract all the guys without even trying. She's dated Kenny (Harris, Claire's ex) and she has also attracted Bentley and Jasper. Sheesh, this girl has amazing powers. There are a lot of others, like Donna Pickett, the prima donna and most popular theater girl in our troupe. And then there's Brady Grayson, the most popular guy who gets all the big parts even though he can't remember his lines, be it song or acting, to save his life. Nice guy, not so bright upstairs.
Anyways, when I have more to update, I will. In fact my troupe is doing ALICE IN WONDERLAND (based on the new movie, I think, according to Jasper) during the summer. I want to be the Red Queen!!! WHEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
Hugz
HM
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