Greetings.
Okay. I told you all about how Kenny told Joseph and how Joseph KNOWS and how everything, all my courage and my plans and my dreams and hopes and fears and and and - (slaps self) Thank you, I needed that - were absolutely RUINED???????
HE LIED TO ME.
That's right. I considered him a brother (we even had this society called the VS and I was second-in-command and he was the leader. But it was more like a family deal so he was the big brother and I the little sister even though I am older than him by a few months.) and he BETRAYED ME. And he can't even tell me WHY he did it. He keeps telling me THE BOSS made him do it. Why? Why did her hurt me? I tell everyone, the one thing that I cannot and WILL NOT stand for is LYING. Disloyalty and cheating are up there too, especially or my boyfriends and the boyfriends of my sisters, which Stan did to Bennie, but I will get into that tomorrow so that I can vent vehemently, but lying... why do it? All I ever did was support Kenny. And he lied? I suffered for over a month because he lied to me?
You know how I found out? I asked Joseph to recall the conversation he had with Kenny. He said he couldn't. I asked him if he was sure. He said he was. I told him to swear on his mother's life. He did. And it got me thinking: Joseph doesn't lie and I THINK that, even though he's sometimes a numbskull when it comes to remembering things, he would remember this. So I confronted Kenny about it. And he ADMITTED TO LYING TO ME. I could have killed him. I would have if I hadn't been talking to him on FACEBOOK at the time.
Oh I am so ANGRY. And hurt... What did I do to deserve it? What happened? WHY DID SOMEONE, ESPECIALLY KENNY, DO THIS TO ME?????????? Everyone thinks they can push me around because I'm fat. NEWS FLASH: I HAVE FEELINGS TOO. Lie to me and I hurt. Don't most people?
Hugz
HM
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Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
Crisis
Greetings.
Oh, this can't be happening. This just CANNOT be happening. Joseph KNOWS. I mean, he knows I like him. I don't know if he knows to what degree my feelings for him are, but he knows I like him.
You remember Kenny Harris, Claire's ex-boyfriend? Well, it seems he has decided to take it upon himself to make my life Hell. During ALICE IN WONDERLAND, (he was a techie, and Joseph was Kind of Hearts, like I mentioned earlier) Kenny and Joseph had a chat. Apparently, during that little chat, either Kenny to Joseph or Joseph divulged that he knew. Either way, Kenny told me he knew. And, to make things worse, he (Joseph) is scared for our relationship. What do I do? I don't know what that means! Does he not want it to change? Is he afraid of what will happen if it does change? I NEED A MIND-READING HELMET!
I really want to strangle Kenny right now. For the past year (YEAR) I have been trying to dig up the courage to perform this great feat of love at graduation. Here was my plan: I'd take him aside, ask him to guarantee that he'd still be my friend even if I did something horrible and/or stupid, and (even though I'd only do it if he promised) then I'd have him close his eye (optional) and I'd kiss him.
THAT'S ALL BYE-BYE. At least, for now. All of my courage is GONE, what little there was of it. If any of you know me, you know I am not easily frightened. I have my phobias i.e. blood, death, the future, spiders larger than my forefinger, amphibians, reptiles. But those are so rare, except for maybe the blood and the future (ha ha), that I am not scared easily.
But this time... This terrifies me. He is my best friend. My confidant. God only knows, maybe my soul-mate. I love him dearly but I want his friendship too. If he gets too scared, he'll leave and I don't know if I can take that. When Freddy dumped me, I gained 40 pounds. Joseph means so much more to me than Freddy ever did. I don't know what will happen to me. Or to him. I think that, somehow, he needs me too. Almost as much as I need him. I'm scared. Scared out of my mind. More scared than I have been for YEARS.
Are you there, God? It's me, Harmony Margaret. The one you cursed with the longest name EVER. Please, help me. Find some way to help me. I need it. I would appreciate you changing Joseph's heart in favor of me, but anything to help is preferable than silence.
I must go cry myself to sleep now.
Hugz
HM
Oh, this can't be happening. This just CANNOT be happening. Joseph KNOWS. I mean, he knows I like him. I don't know if he knows to what degree my feelings for him are, but he knows I like him.
You remember Kenny Harris, Claire's ex-boyfriend? Well, it seems he has decided to take it upon himself to make my life Hell. During ALICE IN WONDERLAND, (he was a techie, and Joseph was Kind of Hearts, like I mentioned earlier) Kenny and Joseph had a chat. Apparently, during that little chat, either Kenny to Joseph or Joseph divulged that he knew. Either way, Kenny told me he knew. And, to make things worse, he (Joseph) is scared for our relationship. What do I do? I don't know what that means! Does he not want it to change? Is he afraid of what will happen if it does change? I NEED A MIND-READING HELMET!
I really want to strangle Kenny right now. For the past year (YEAR) I have been trying to dig up the courage to perform this great feat of love at graduation. Here was my plan: I'd take him aside, ask him to guarantee that he'd still be my friend even if I did something horrible and/or stupid, and (even though I'd only do it if he promised) then I'd have him close his eye (optional) and I'd kiss him.
THAT'S ALL BYE-BYE. At least, for now. All of my courage is GONE, what little there was of it. If any of you know me, you know I am not easily frightened. I have my phobias i.e. blood, death, the future, spiders larger than my forefinger, amphibians, reptiles. But those are so rare, except for maybe the blood and the future (ha ha), that I am not scared easily.
But this time... This terrifies me. He is my best friend. My confidant. God only knows, maybe my soul-mate. I love him dearly but I want his friendship too. If he gets too scared, he'll leave and I don't know if I can take that. When Freddy dumped me, I gained 40 pounds. Joseph means so much more to me than Freddy ever did. I don't know what will happen to me. Or to him. I think that, somehow, he needs me too. Almost as much as I need him. I'm scared. Scared out of my mind. More scared than I have been for YEARS.
Are you there, God? It's me, Harmony Margaret. The one you cursed with the longest name EVER. Please, help me. Find some way to help me. I need it. I would appreciate you changing Joseph's heart in favor of me, but anything to help is preferable than silence.
I must go cry myself to sleep now.
Hugz
HM
Friday, April 30, 2010
My Love Life Part Three: Victor Hausen
Greetings.
Here we go again.
After Freddy broke my heart, Claire's then-boyfriend introduced me to his "brother" - my "cousin" via a special group (not a cult, more of a support group) - Victor Hausen. We hit it off immediately. He helped me cope with my heartbreak in a way no one else could. Claire tried, as did Ally. I didn't know Joss that well then. Bennie couldn't help, though not for lack of trying. And Joseph... well, he's a robot.
Victor called me every night and we talked for lengths of time that varied from half an hour to two hours. It was comforting, him talking to me. But I had never seen him. I only talked to him. When he asked me to be his girlfriend, I said yes. I was happy. I felt wanted. And that was what I needed, someone wanting me.
Eventually, on Veteran's Day, we met for real. Victor, Kenny, and Claire came over to my house to watch movies. Kenny and Claire had other ideas, though. (Chill, they just made out.) Victor and I did too, but not as much as Kenny and Claire. It was my first real kiss... hee hee.
I told Victor I loved him. But... I think I just said it because he did. In retrospect, it was WAAAAAY too early in the relationship. He spent New Year's with Bev, Dad, Bentley, and I. He stayed overnight at my house (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) once because I had shows for two days and he came to all of them. He was the most wonderful boyfriend. I was happy. I didn't hurt over Freddy or Aaron anymore.
But in January of 2009, I broke up with him. I had been dodging his calls and trying to avoid it. But I couldn't avoid the inevitable. I broke up with him. And he took it really well. I cried at the time, but it was because I felt guilty because I felt that I had used him to get over Freddy. In a way I had, but I did feel very warm towards him all on my own. I felt sad that I couldn't treat him how he deserved. So I broke it off. It was the right thing to do.
Shortly after I broke up with Victor, Claire broke up with Kenny. She was devastated. She really was in love with him, really and truly. It was cute, really... And I wish it had lasted longer. They went out for almost six months, which, for when you're fifteen, is a long time. It hurt to see how much pain Claire was in.
But now we've moved on. And we're both fine. It all worked out.
To be continued.
Hugz
HM
Here we go again.
After Freddy broke my heart, Claire's then-boyfriend introduced me to his "brother" - my "cousin" via a special group (not a cult, more of a support group) - Victor Hausen. We hit it off immediately. He helped me cope with my heartbreak in a way no one else could. Claire tried, as did Ally. I didn't know Joss that well then. Bennie couldn't help, though not for lack of trying. And Joseph... well, he's a robot.
Victor called me every night and we talked for lengths of time that varied from half an hour to two hours. It was comforting, him talking to me. But I had never seen him. I only talked to him. When he asked me to be his girlfriend, I said yes. I was happy. I felt wanted. And that was what I needed, someone wanting me.
Eventually, on Veteran's Day, we met for real. Victor, Kenny, and Claire came over to my house to watch movies. Kenny and Claire had other ideas, though. (Chill, they just made out.) Victor and I did too, but not as much as Kenny and Claire. It was my first real kiss... hee hee.
I told Victor I loved him. But... I think I just said it because he did. In retrospect, it was WAAAAAY too early in the relationship. He spent New Year's with Bev, Dad, Bentley, and I. He stayed overnight at my house (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) once because I had shows for two days and he came to all of them. He was the most wonderful boyfriend. I was happy. I didn't hurt over Freddy or Aaron anymore.
But in January of 2009, I broke up with him. I had been dodging his calls and trying to avoid it. But I couldn't avoid the inevitable. I broke up with him. And he took it really well. I cried at the time, but it was because I felt guilty because I felt that I had used him to get over Freddy. In a way I had, but I did feel very warm towards him all on my own. I felt sad that I couldn't treat him how he deserved. So I broke it off. It was the right thing to do.
Shortly after I broke up with Victor, Claire broke up with Kenny. She was devastated. She really was in love with him, really and truly. It was cute, really... And I wish it had lasted longer. They went out for almost six months, which, for when you're fifteen, is a long time. It hurt to see how much pain Claire was in.
But now we've moved on. And we're both fine. It all worked out.
To be continued.
Hugz
HM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Theater
Greetings.
I happen to be an actress, singer, and a dancer (when I focus REALLY hard on the choreography). And I have even won an award for one of my roles. (I played a man. How humiliating is that?) But what I'd really like to discuss in this post are my friends from theater.
Bentley also participates in the shows. As do Jasper and Joseph. In fact, that's how Joseph and I met. I kept stealing his hat when he played John in PETER PAN. Anyways, there are more people in theater. Claire met her first serious boyfriend Kenny Harris in the same show I played a man in. She was one of my employees and he was the minion of my enemy.
Then we have Kenny Gordon. He is a friend of mine from when I was the Witch in INTO THE WOODS. He played Cinderella's father. Claire played an old Hag, Joseph played the Mysterious Man, and Jasper was the Narrator. In INTO THE WOODS, I met this WAAAAAAAAAAY hyper happy peppy preppy girl named Hillary Newcombe. She played Little Red Riding Hood. She's nice and everything but she's so ANNOYING. But not even Bentley saw it. In fact he and Hillary "dated" for a little while. (He's 13 and she's 12. I think they're crazy.) Then there's Mickie Phineas. She's one of the sweetest girls in the world and she's one of those girls that attract all the guys without even trying. She's dated Kenny (Harris, Claire's ex) and she has also attracted Bentley and Jasper. Sheesh, this girl has amazing powers. There are a lot of others, like Donna Pickett, the prima donna and most popular theater girl in our troupe. And then there's Brady Grayson, the most popular guy who gets all the big parts even though he can't remember his lines, be it song or acting, to save his life. Nice guy, not so bright upstairs.
Anyways, when I have more to update, I will. In fact my troupe is doing ALICE IN WONDERLAND (based on the new movie, I think, according to Jasper) during the summer. I want to be the Red Queen!!! WHEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
Hugz
HM
I happen to be an actress, singer, and a dancer (when I focus REALLY hard on the choreography). And I have even won an award for one of my roles. (I played a man. How humiliating is that?) But what I'd really like to discuss in this post are my friends from theater.
Bentley also participates in the shows. As do Jasper and Joseph. In fact, that's how Joseph and I met. I kept stealing his hat when he played John in PETER PAN. Anyways, there are more people in theater. Claire met her first serious boyfriend Kenny Harris in the same show I played a man in. She was one of my employees and he was the minion of my enemy.
Then we have Kenny Gordon. He is a friend of mine from when I was the Witch in INTO THE WOODS. He played Cinderella's father. Claire played an old Hag, Joseph played the Mysterious Man, and Jasper was the Narrator. In INTO THE WOODS, I met this WAAAAAAAAAAY hyper happy peppy preppy girl named Hillary Newcombe. She played Little Red Riding Hood. She's nice and everything but she's so ANNOYING. But not even Bentley saw it. In fact he and Hillary "dated" for a little while. (He's 13 and she's 12. I think they're crazy.) Then there's Mickie Phineas. She's one of the sweetest girls in the world and she's one of those girls that attract all the guys without even trying. She's dated Kenny (Harris, Claire's ex) and she has also attracted Bentley and Jasper. Sheesh, this girl has amazing powers. There are a lot of others, like Donna Pickett, the prima donna and most popular theater girl in our troupe. And then there's Brady Grayson, the most popular guy who gets all the big parts even though he can't remember his lines, be it song or acting, to save his life. Nice guy, not so bright upstairs.
Anyways, when I have more to update, I will. In fact my troupe is doing ALICE IN WONDERLAND (based on the new movie, I think, according to Jasper) during the summer. I want to be the Red Queen!!! WHEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
Hugz
HM
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